Monday, June 13, 2011

Que Sera Sera


I was waiting for my lunch to arrive in a mamak coffee shop, staring out on the street, looking at the lunch hour rush, somehow it dawns on me that I was totally "blank' as if staring into abyss. I snapped out of my blank thoughts and start thinking of the future of me and my family. I feel like a captain steering my ship in uncharted territory, where no land at sight, only the flat horizon of the vast ocean. Yet I knew we are heading somewhere, what is dangerous is I don't know where. My family depends on me on this voyage, we are a team and I'm the leader who are totally clueless of our destination. Out in front I can't see any land, though the sky is clear, I know storms are waiting to hit anytime, waves will rock our tiny ship, and at times it will last for days. On stormy night, it will be pitch black, darkness will surround our ship, waves will overflow unto the ship, creaking boards, swaying lamps, seasickness will dampen our spirit. At time giving up was the only option, I just raise my hands to nature and just as I about to accept defeat,the storm will subside and twinkling shining stars becomes inspiration for me to carry on, a beacon of hope in time of desperation. I can't give up, I can't raise my hands up, not now, not until its over. Looking at my beautiful wife, two beautiful children, how can I give up , how can I destroy their hope and dreams, NO, I won't give up no matter how high the tidal waves will hit our ship, no matter how dark it will be, how cold, how wet, how hungry, how desperate, how discouraging, how hopeless, I WILL NOT GIVE UP, with GOD's help and blessing I will steer our ship to a place where we can recoup, reenergise, reorganize  strategise until our next voyage. The Somewhere becomes clearer, the path becomes obvious, the commitment will grow stronger. Life is a series of voyages that I will go through until I rest at the Shore where Almighty God our Father awaits me. I WILL UNTIL.

Friday, June 3, 2011

Vintage Architecture












































Recently I took my family for a day trip to Klias wetland for a FAM trip on a trawler converted river cruise boat. On the way we stopped at Membakut old town. Two old town shop buildings still stands amidst growing modern shops. It must have been grand during its hey bygone days, going through the old wooden shops, kopi tiams and bicycle shops. Can you imagine of what it was like then? It reminds me of what 20 cents can buy you that time. Going to school with 20 cents was something I look forward to, it can buy me a packet of " Nasi Kuning" and a syrup drink. Yes those were the days. I took some photos of these old buildings and was thinking, what do you do with these buildings? restore or destroy it? Close to these two old block stands another old wooden shop houses beside it a recent burnt down block. Soon these old wooden buildings will be replace and what we have is just memories of it. So before it long gone, here are some photos of these Vintage Architecture.












































































































Wednesday, April 20, 2011

19th April 2011








A day that will not be forgotten in our life for as long as we shall live. A day where we felt so helpless and drained, a day that we felt losing. My day start as usual woke up at 5.50am to boil water for my son to prepare him for school. At 6 am, I went to Norman's room only to find him not there, I thought he was in the toilet, but also not there, checked with Nikki, he was not there. Ran over to my inlaws house also was not there. A dreadful feeling shook me, he is missing. He left us or somebody took him away. My wife woke up to her disbelief and starting to break up but I consoled her to be strong. Checked his room, his school bag,headlamp and wallet was not there. His shoes was all in the shoe's rack, what?! he got no shoes or slippers on?? I drove to the tamu ground to look,none, to his school which is only about 5 minutes drive away, school children was just arriving, it was 6.30am, went to his classroom and asked Max if he've seen Norman, negative. Drove around Donggongon town, looking at every vehicle tha passed by, every bus that stationed at the bus station, nil. I was growing anxious, praying and aching to think of his well being. All thoughts came to my mind. God please protect my boy, bring him back safely to us. every few minutes my wife will check on me, I worry about my son and my wife's condition. God, please help us. Went back to the tamu ground and met my father in law as he was just coming down from the church after the morning mass, he knew it because somebody from the house called him already. He went back to house to search the sorrounding area, I head towards the Police Station to check and report enroute I stopped to ask Jenny if his son got any project with Norman in the school, she said none because its Test week, told her that Norman is missing and staright away left for the station. After spending few minutes, headed back home and check the room again before heading to the mountain range with my wife. a long emotional drive for both of us, even stopped at one point as we were approaching a boy limping same age and built as Norman but it was not him. drove well pass Babagon uphill, and we decided to head back to his school, at the school I briefly spoke his class teacher and spoke to one of his close friend Aaron, he relate to us that Norman has been talking about going out for camping theday before but has not mention a specific place. Reaching home, relatives start pouring in, search parties combing the area, the riverside and sorrounding bushes. My sister Jocelyn and brother in law was there too. Spoke to them about of what the friend told me at school and Nikki also told my wife of what Norman asked her about camping at Kinabalu park, camping? passed his passport size photo to my sister and my wife's cousin to asssit on the search. Atos came and we head up the hill in front of our house, followed by my wife and Jenny's husband. After combing the area we went down to the house, more people start coming. We left the house to search the Sarapung and Kolopis area, now it already 3 hours passed and we starting to feel so emotionally aching. but we pushed on, drove out the area, nothing and headed towards kibabaig by pass to Minintod, we head over the hill to bukit padang, down and decided to go through bundusan. I feel my wife's anguish, so helpless, thoughts of what he was going through, the fear and uncertainty he was going through.. almost 5 hours has passed by, where are you was all can utter.. where are you, Lord please help us. Jenny called saying that a van driver seen a boy around 3-4am passes by our neighbours house with red shorts or red t-shirt, the details of what the boy wore was not clear, he was heading towards donggongon. But the night before Norman was wearing a yellow t- shirts with blue and red sleeves and New Balance wording, so we said it might not be him but it could be him too.. from Bundusan we headed back towards donggongon via kDCA road. A few minutes before Yue Min, my sister Jocelyn called and spoke to my wife, she found him walking limping from Millenium going to donggongon direction, my wife and I wept painfully and joyfully, thanking God for his grace. My wife spoke to Norman emtionally but tenderly. We felt of losing him for 5 hours or so, that 5 hours was so painful for us all, was so draining, it was as if the end and no words can really describe of our feelings. And with God's grace and the prayers the people pour our to our God Almighty, our beloved Son Norman Enrique Bugay is safe with us with just a blister on his feet. He was clueless himself of what had happened and why he was there. What matter to us now, he is safe God delivered him back to us, God answered our prayers.. Thank you Lord , Thank you.

Monday, April 18, 2011

Good morning yesterday


Monday blues, I'm still in sunday lazy mode. Drowsy of too much bejewel on FB. Watched a DVD movie yesterday evening, " The Way of the Warrior" Nice , love the settings, so much like 3D video games. Been lately thinking about my life, my birthday is just round the corner, to be exact it will be Saturday next week, not that I celebrate my birthday, just that after 40 over years, looking back at what I been through, it brought smile, joy and tears and no regrets, of course I wish I would have done better but so what, I take life as it comes. Love my family, my wife and our 2 fast growing beautiful kids. Been thinking of my late grandmother because her birthday falls a day earlier than mine, normally I would call or text her to wish her happy birthday, well gonna miss her this year. It is always like that when somebody is not around you, you start thinking or looking for them and what more now she is gone. Well life goes on, Happy Birthday mang , in advance.


Cheers!

Thursday, April 14, 2011

Cityscape




I love cityscapes, these photos taken recently during our participation in Kuala lumpur Matta Fair. Taken from Legend Hotel.

Monday, April 11, 2011

Monday Blues

Woke up this morning feeling a bit down, feels like the flu bug had bitten me, hope not. Have to be up and positive, so many things had to be done, some many plans, so many that I want to do. I was stucked in the morning jam for nearly an hour today, normally I'll be in a jam for 30 minutes the most but today it was extra time. I have to keep calm as normally I get easily annoyed especially with drivers who jump queues and I was calm all the way. As usual my normal routine will be open the office, sit a few minutes and head for the some photo shoot. My shooting ground covers the seafront of Wisma Merdeka up to the wet market. Today though it was just the front of Merdeka. A short shooting today as the sun was hot and the sea front was a bit quiet. Some shoots for my seafront album though.

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

February

Roberta Dinola

29th April 1925-26th February 2011

Have not been able to update this blog due to work and laziness like Jules Bernard " Laziness is nothing more than habit of resting before you get tired" well I was tired after all the travelling and life's event that happened in February and creeped into March, and we are at the end of March, finally I managed to summon my strength to open this blog and starting "pecking" through the board pouring out my thoughts before I start resting again :).


After Manila, on the 26th February 2011, at around 4.30pm our beloved Grand mother"mamang" passed away at the Queen Elizabeth Hospital, leaving behind 14 children ( 12 in Sabah and 2 in the Philippines) more than 100 grandchildren, great grandchildren and great great grandchildren. No other time than this we had most of the families near and far came to be together to grieve her passing. Uncles and aunties, inlaws and outlaws,cousins, known and unknown,everybody was there. She was laid to rest at the mile 4 Catholic Cemetry , Penampang on a rainy day on the 1st March after an emotional mass by Rev.Father Felix Chung at the Sacred Heart Cathderal. As we bade our farewell to "Mamang" with the song Amazing Grace sung in our heart, with every tears that felled, our prayers goes along with her soul on her final journey to meet our heavenly Father. Rest in Peace Mang, we shall all meet again one fine day.

Friday, March 4, 2011

February 2011


It has been a while since my last posting. So many things happened in February, it will definitley leave a mark in my life.I may say that my journey for 2011 starts in February. I left for Manila on the 16th February, a 6 days work and visit trip. I was born in Bataan but was raised in Malaysia and this trip was my very 1st after 40 over years. The flight was surprisingly short ( 1 hour 50 over minutes) and I touched Philippine's soil. The place shake the core of me, as if, just waking up from my slumber and I'm back to a familiar place, faces and languages, as if I slept for 40 over years and woke up..amazingly I can speak tagalog even though not perfect but I was understood perfectly well. We touched down at Clark , Diosdado Macapagal Airport, from here we headed towards Manila, a journey that took us through beautiful country side of paddy fields, provinces and jeepeneys. It took almost 3 hours for us to reach the Heritage Hotel in Pasay in the massive traffic jam, as we hit the city area in the peak hours of people heading home. After checking in we rested for a few minutes before heading towards Mall of Asia, a huge shopping mall just about 5 to 10 minutes drive from the hotel. 1st in our itinerary was to buy "sim" card for our mobile phone, need to report duty to my beloved wife back home. But ended up she calling me everytime because of convienience, I always ran out of credit, so we decided she call me :).I will continue my write up again tomorrow.

Friday, January 28, 2011

Project: Faces of Penampang, I have been thinking of taking photos of places, events and the people of Penampang. I start herewith the statue of the late Datuk Peter Mojuntin in the centre of Donggongon township.


Friday, January 14, 2011

Conservation Photography.

"When I see an elephant killed, I can't stop the guy from killing the elephant, thats not my job. My job is to make images that stop us from killing elephants" - Michael Nichols- National Geographic Wildlife Photographer

A Caged Magpie- Sad :(



Monday, January 10, 2011

Wind Chime


Photo of my wife taken few minutes before 12am on new year's eve. Here she was releasing a lantern to symbolise the departure of 2010 and welcoming a brand new year 2011. May 2011 bring us good health, lots of love and heaps of wealth!